IF NOTHING CHANGES... NOTHING CHANGES

Many interact with people on a daily basis. These people could be friends, family, co-workers, customers, clients, friends of friends, or strangers. When I know someone well its based on my experience with that person. Being an allower, I never try to change a person to fit my idea of who they should be because that is not what I do. I have no agenda in that regard or any for that matter. I help when asked and in doing so try to help the person see from their own perspective with different thought processes. Circles are cycles. If you are getting the same result and are unhappy with it, maybe its time to try something different. My experience with change has been an internal journey. I do not always make the correct decision even if the end result gives me the result I want.

My last experience with this concept was self sabotage and a lot of loss was incurred. The important lesson that I learned from that is that when its time for change, change it. Don't try to hang on to what doesn't serve you or others out of fear. You'll save yourself a lot of time and heart ache. This could be a job, a relationship, a hobby or habit. I have learned to replace old habits that do not support growth and change with new habits that fulfill me. I landed the perfect job that serves several areas of my growth and health. Its both physically and mentally demanding, but not stressful. There is immediate opportunity for growth, promotion and travel as a member of this work force. I have my dream schedule and the securities I lost earlier this year. There are areas of my life where I am working to change a very unhealthy co-dependency. This summer will be an interesting one that will change my current state from dependent to independent. I always thought that I lived fearlessly, but the one thing I feared the most was my own independence. This is what happened when I chose to give more of myself to someone who does not choose me. It is a hurtful reality that I am not willing to allow.

My choices have landed me here and I'm alright with that. I have learned that if nothing changes, nothing changes. Every cell in my body changes every second of everyday and my spirituality has gained me alignment, peace and a harmonious existence within myself. I am confident in what I want for my life, I am sensitive to energies and feel everything deeply. I am a prayer warrior, I meditate, I love deeply and I love learning new things. I can not be tamed, I am someone who has the freedom to go and do when called. I learned that I don't have lasting relationships with anyone who does not choose to grow and learn and be present. Who wants to repeat the third grade over and over seeing their friends and family grow and learn and become who they are meant to be. Not this woman. I love to see others grow. Its a hopeful visual and it warms my heart. I genuinely love to see it and welcome it as part of my experience. It pains me to see the opposite. When those once close to me die a little inside everyday, because they resist new experiences  for whatever  reason they've bought and sold the idea to themselves. I love them anyway and wish for the best for them on their personal journey.

If you gain nothing else from this post, let it be that if you are going to try something, go all in and try it. Doing things half way or not with your whole heart or intention is really not going to give you the result you are seeking. Take ownership of your life and your decisions and understand, whether or not you realize it, that you are the creator of your circumstance; good or bad. Blame serves no purpose when you are living your own life.

THE TRUTH???

The truth about truth is: Many only want it when it's convenient. Is it then still truth? When is it okay to lie or hide the truth? Really, think about it. I was raised on lies: Santa, the Easter Bunny, the Tooth fairy. It was started it, now how do I carry this through life? Well, as an adult you're expected to be truthful. Reality...most people can't handle the truth. What most people I've met have rather than truth is belief. When we hear something over and over again we're programmed to believe it. As a child I didn't question it or have any reason to mistrust what I was told. I also grew up with, "because I said so." So what does that look like in adulthood. Secrets, lies, dishonesty. This is observable behavior, so when your children lie mirror yourself.  Where did it start? Maybe with those who have lied to them throughout their childhood. Maybe learned behavior from those they trusted. Maybe you.

The truth can be beautiful and reassuring. The truth can also be ugly and hurtful. We use something call tact to spare people's feelings or to be kind. Some just don't lend the truth to not make waves and others may lie. There are also those we say don't bite their tongue. I have more respect for those people than those who sugar coat and put sprinkles on lies and call it truth. I wonder what life is like for the child who was never lied to by anyone. The child who grew into a well informed adolescent,  young adult and adult. I imagine it's frustrating sifting through all the stuff that people say and do. Rarely ever coming into contact with another with the same upbringing as you. Wisdom then becomes a secret. Don't tell little Joe that there's no Santa, he still believes. So there you are finally with the truth and have been sworn to secrecy by the lies who created you or that love you.

Has nobody questioned this? Has anyone thought of the monster you're creating with lies. I didn't and so the endless cycle continues from generation to generation. How about stories? I think they could work. Stories give us wonder, surprise and lots of questions. Stories and the choice to believe or not to me is still better than a lie. Stories are what set many of us on our life path to find out more about who we are, and what our purpose is. Stories, choices and life experiences. What is true for one person may not be true for another. This is where respect comes in. You don't have to agree with or like what someone else does or says, but a healthy understanding of human nature may help to put things into perspective.

We could learn from the past if we have a truthful account of what actually occured, how it was resolved for that time, but we need to be present in our own existence. Present right now. I'm still a little uneasy about Pluto. My generation grew up believing it was a planet and later told it wasn't. Science is not exact, but then neither is truth. My belief fills me with knowledge that there are things happening to us and around us that many are unaware of. Am I wrong to use my intuition? I no longer feel the need to be right, so difference of thought based on one's own perception comes into question because of programming. Is there no end to the insanity?

Do we as human, hybrid or multidimensional beings (yes I went there), have the right to know the truth? I say yes knowing exactly what that means. For example: How does not knowing where my food comes from protect my health? Or yours. Maybe heath is not on your top 10 list of values, mentally, physically, spiritually or otherwise.  Do you have children? Have you ever taken them to an apple orchid to pick apples or a pumpkin patch to pick the perfect pumpkin?  How about a botanical garden? They can eat the apples, make cider or pie,eat pumpkin seeds or make pumpkin pie. Maybe they smelled the sweet floral fragrance of the garden or the smell of earth's soil. Now think about that life experience a moment. Let the beauty of it sink in. ☺ ahhh. Now have you ever taken you children or sent them on a field trip or with family to a petting zoo to make nice with the animal kingdom? Maybe they saw the monkeys vomit and eat it, or the elephants take a huge dump and they gave their expression of ewe or yuk or just laughed their little hearts out? Now have you ever taken your children to a slaughter house? And food processing plant? No? Isn't this as true as the apples that grow on trees, just in a primal form. Those chickens they fed and chick's they pet and the goats and cows with their large eyes that met the eyes of your children is what's for dinner. Choices can be made when they are given. This was taken from me, and I in turn took it from my son. Was this honest? I took away his free will and fed him what I was programmed to believe was good for him. It's what I knew so, I have no guilt about it. When you become informed you may choose to unsee what you saw or you may make another choice to save a life or the lives of other sentient beings. Either way it's your choice.

I don't see this as right or wrong, I see it as life experience and part of why we are here. I have no opinions about what anyone consumes. I learned what works for me and my body and I choose accordingly. Choices should not dictate how we relate with one another. Guess what? it does everyday unfortunately and prevents many people from connecting. I don't see in color, I see in character. I choose to be and do what I do and respect others choices. What I do now is a culmination of collective information and just life experience. There are laws in place that govern the country. I live by the laws of the universe. I don't make waves and I don't blame others for my choices. This is my perception of truth in part but not in its entirety. That would be the book. What are your feelings on truth?

I RUN

I RUN BUT I'M NOT A RUNNER. I STARTED WITH SPEED WALKING, FOUND OUT I LOVE HIKING. I RAN MY FIRST 5K IN AUGUST 2014 AND STOPPED. NOT EVEN SURE WHY, BUT I FOUND SOMETHING THAT EXCITED ME ABOUT RUNNING. NOT ONLY IS IT GREAT CARDIO THAT BURNS MEGA CALIRIES, BUT ITS A REAL CHALLENGE AND I LOVE A CHALLENGE.

IN SEPTEMBER, I STARTED WORKING OUT. I ALSO BE CAME A TEAM BEACHBODY COACH. I FIGURED THE BEST WAY TO SHARE THIS WITH EVERYONE IS TO LET THEM SEE THE CHANGES IN ME THEN THEY'D KNOW THAT THE PRODUCTS AND NUTRITION PLANS WORK. I COMPLETED MY LAST  WORKOUT OF A 10 WEEK PROGRAM MID NOVEMBER. I HAVEN'T HAD MUCH SUCCESS WITH PACKING MY CHALLENGE GROUPS SO I STARTED WITH A FREE FIT CLUB. OF 9 PEOPLE INCLUDED ME ONLY 3 OR 4 PARTICIPATED IN THE ONLINE CHATS WITH HEALTH TIPS RECIPES AND WHAT THE DID TO MOVE THEIR BODY THAT WEEK. 

I NEXT CREATED A FREE CHALLENGE GROUPS FOR RUNNERS. I SELECTED 5 PEOPLE I LOOK UP TO ATHELETICALLY AND PROFESSIONALLY AND FROM THEIR RESPONSE, I KNEW THIS COULD WORK.  AFTER HEARING ABOUT SEVERAL EXCERCISE MINUTE GROUP AND RUN GROUPS FROM MY FELLOW COACH ON A CONFERENCE CALL AN IDEA WAS BORN. IT WORKS WELL BECAUSE MOST OF THE PEOPLE I INVITED ARE ALREADY RUNNERS. SO THE 120 MILES IN 60 DAYS CHALLENGE BEGAN ON NOVEMBER 2ND A RUNS UNTIL JANUARY 2ND. 3+ PEOPLE HAVE POSTED ONLINE, TWO ARE TRACKING OFFLINE AND 3 HAVE NOT STARTED. THIS IS GOOD BECAUSE THOSE POSTING ARE INSPIRING OTHERS AND ME TO GET IT DONE. EVERYONE WINS BECAUSE THIS LEADS TO A MORE ACTIVE LIFESTYLE.

IT'S A WAY TO KEEP PEOPLE MOVING BEFORE AND DURING THE MOST DIFFICULT TIME OF YEAR FOR MAINTAINING WEIGHT LOSS: THE HOLIDAY SEASON. SO THE CHALLENGERS WILL  RUN THROUGH THE 1ST OF THE YEAR. IT'S NOWNEAR THE END OF NOVEMBER. I AM STILL NOT IN LOVE WITH RUNNING BUT I DO HAVE A GOAL: ACQUIRING AND MAINTAINING A 13 MINUTE MILE 2/5K RACES AND A 10K.

ELECTRIC RUN, WAS MY FIRST, NOT SURE IF THAT ONE CAN BE TOPPED. MAYBE IF I PLAY MY OWN MUSIC OR INSPIRATIONAL AUDIO,  IT MAKES IT FAR MORE INTERESTING. FOR THE TIME, MY TREADMILL IS GETTING WORKED OUT BUT I'M TAKING THIS RUN ON THE ROAD. WITH EACH RUN IM CUTTING MY TIME BY 1-1.5 MIN. EVEN THOUGH I'M WAY BEHIND, I'M STILL GOING I WILL RUN 120 MILES, THE CHALLENGE IS IT GET IT DONE IN THE TIME I HAVE LEFT.

NOT CRAZY ABOUT THE SWEAT, BUT CRAZY ABOUT WHAT ITS DOING FOR MY BODY.  I WANT TO EXPERIENCE THE ZONE. WHEN I DO, I IMAGINE I'LL RUN FOR LIFE IF ITS SOMETHING I ENJOY. IT'S AWESOME TO RUN FOR A CAUSE, FOR FUN OR FOR MY HEALTH. THE ONE THING THAT BOTHERS ME IS THAT EVEN WITH THE CHALLENGE I STILL RUN ALONE. I'M SURE I DON'T HAVE TO, BUT I CHOOSE TO. ONE BEING: MOST PEOPLE WANT TO CHILL RATHER THAN BUILD STRENGTH AND ENDURANCE THROUGH RUNNING, THE OTHER IS MATCHING UP SCHEDULES AND LOCATIONS.

THERE ARE RUNNERS I ADMIRE AND GET ADVICE FROM AND THESE PEOPLE INSPIRE ME. MY HEALTH STANDARD HAVE CHANGED THIS YEAR AND I'M SO EXCITED ABOUT IT THAT I WANT OTHERS TO JOIN ME IN HELPING OTHERS TO GET HEALTHY. HMM NICE THOUGHT. I ENJOY MY OWN COMPANY AND WHAT I'M LEARNING WILL HELP THOSE WHO NEED MOTIVATION TO IMPROVE THEIR HEALTH. IT REALLY HELPS TO SPEND TIME WITH THOSE WHO HAVE COMMON INTERESTS.